Monday-Tuesday 8/15-16: Belonging?

Who all has never been lonely? Who hasn't ever felt lost of confused with the feeling like your heading into a fog bank blind?
I know I have. Isn't it terrible how you can be surrounded by almost all your friends and favorite people and STILL there's a strange hollow feeling? I feel it in my stomache, chest, or throat. Like in trying to have a good time but I don't know what's missing. Sometimes I get lonesome. I guess sometimes I feel like I'm there but I'm not really wanted exactly.
Who knows what I'm talking about here?
Loneliness can come from losing a friend or family member. Whether its to distance, death, or just changes that are made it happens.
When I'm lonely and I'm all alone I try to change that.
I try to make plans.
I dance like a freak.
I sing (badly most of the time).
I call or txt a friend.
I read my friend's blogs (which inspire me to great heights). (:
I read.
I OCCUPY myself because then I don't think about it.
I distract myself.
That's how it works for me.
But I'm still not sure where I belong. I don't know if I'll ever know.
I tend to feel a belonging feeling when I'm in church. I know it may sound silly but I really feel at home. I don't think anyone would guess it either.
I have such great friends as well. They make me happy constantly. I don't know how I'd cope without them. I have found out in the last year, my first year of high school, who my real friends are. I finally feel a little closure or something. I have lost a couple friends I thought were right for me but I feel better now with friends that I do believe I belong with.
Bless.

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